Ebb and Flow


The ebb and flow of life.  We all deal with it.  We all have trials and tribulations.  It’s part of our journey here.  Some days, I’m engulfed in the undertow, my feet being sucked down into the muck and the mud.  On these days, it’s hard to see the sunshine on the surface of the water.  I’ve been dealing with some personal issues and think I’m beginning to see the light.

Our winter has been uncommonly wet.  Until this last bit of dry weather, the weatherman said that we’ve only had, at most, 5 consecutive days of no rain, for months now.  Grey and gloomy skies.  Having no sun really can make a difference!

I know when my depression rears it’s ugly head.  I’ve battled the beast long enough to know it’s M.O.  Although not an easy thing to do, I went to my doctor and had an honest discussion with her about how I’ve been feeling.  Reaching out for help is the hardest part of battling depression.  But I know I have to.  I’m very lucky to have a doctor that I adore.  She’s wonderful.  The type of person I would like to be friends with.  Even with this knowledge, depression is a sneaky bastard.  It took me more than a month to set the appointment.

On the day of my appointment, while sitting in the waiting room, I almost bolted for the door.  It’s hard to describe.  But it’s like I’m have a battle, an argument with this…. being.  I KNOW what I SHOULD do, but the beast will argue with me, justify its actions and what usually happens is… nothing.  Depression can paralyze you.  You continue to put off getting help.  You don’t tell anyone how you’re feeling.  You isolate yourself to avoid uncomfortable situations.  So it’s even easier for the beast to dig its heels in and really mess with your head.  You isolate yourself more, becoming more depressed.  The more depressed you become, the more you isolate yourself.  Even KNOWING all of the ugly beast’s tricks, I still fall for them.

I feel better just having been able to Voice my concerns with someone.  I know I’m not out of the deep end yet, but there is hope.  I’m swimming toward that sunshine on the surface above me and it’s getting closer.

Copyright (C) 2020 Penny Wilson

*If you or someone you love is struggling with depression or other mental health issues, I invite you to look over my Mental Health Help Page which can be found HERE.  On this page, you will find several links on ways to get help.

Thank you for joining me on this journey.  ❤ Penny

The Angels Will Dance


“We can all be angels to one another. We can choose to obey the still small stirring within, the little whisper that says, ‘Go. Ask. Reach out. Be an answer to someone’s plea. You have a part to play. Have faith.’ We can decide to risk that He is indeed there, watching, caring, cherishing us as we love and accept love. The world will be a better place for it. And wherever they are, the angels will dance.”

-Joan Wester Anderson AUTHOR

Depression, Looking for Answers?


The reason for this post is because I was looking back at my stats for 2019. My most liked post and my most visited post is one called Depression and Denial. This tells me that people WANT information on this subject.

Those of you that have followed me for a while, know the reasons that I continue to write and speak out about Depression. My #1 reason is this: EVERY DAY 121 Americans commit suicide.  50% of those people suffered from depression.  Reason enough to write about it?  I thought so too. My #2 reason I write about it is to help end the stigma that surrounds Depression.

If you’re new to my blog and for some reason you’ve come across this post, maybe you’re looking for answers. Maybe you’re looking for help. Maybe you’re confused about how and why you feel the way that you do. Maybe, maybe, something that you find on my blog will help.

I pray that’s so.

If you need help, or if you’re just looking to get some questions answered about what you’re feeling, please visit my Mental Health Help page. On this page, you will find a lot of links, contact information, social media connections and phone numbers for different ways to seek help.

Also on this page are different posts that I’ve written on the subject of depression and mental health help. You might browse through these posts and see if there is something there that will connect with you. HERE is that link again.

I’ve lived this. I’ve walked this walk. I know about the hopelessness, the darkness that encompasses everything in your life. I know about the isolation, the feeling of being lost. I know what you’re dealing with. If you need answers, I hope you find something here that helps you. Stay strong. There IS help for you.

Thank you for joining me on this journey. ❤ Penny

(C) 2020 Penny Wilson

 

 

 

New Page For Depression/Mental Health Help


I have a NEW PAGE on my blog!  If you look at the Tabs at the top of my Blog Home Page, you will see that I’ve added one called Depression & Mental Health Help.  Here, I’ve compiled a list of phone numbers and links to websites where anyone that needs help can get it.  I will add to this when I have new information.

I’ve also copied & pasted the different articles and pieces that I have personally written on this subject.

Those of you that have followed me for any length of time know that education and awareness of these subjects are very important to me.

If you have a phone number, link or information that you would like to see added to the page, please use the Contact Form, shoot me an email and I’ll see about adding it!

I’ve JUST had this page go Live today.  I’ve tried to make sure that all of the links work, but if you come across something that doesn’t work, please let me know.

Also, to those of you that have hung in there with me through my various highs and lows, THANK YOU!!  I’ve been on the down-low for a while, but do believe that I’m beginning to see light at the end of the tunnel.

As always, Thank You for joining me on this journey.  ❤ Penny

 

 

Getting Help For Depression


I’ve written a few times here about Depression.  Every time I do, my view stats skyrocket.  This tells me several things.  It tells me that lots of people are interested in learning more about the subject.  It tells me that people out there are looking for help.  It also tells me that more people are talking about depression.

This is GOOD!  Because more people need to be Talking about depression, Tweeting about depression and sharing experiences.   This subject needs to come out of the dark and into the light of day.  There is too much stigma attached to depression.  Too often people do not seek help for it.

The main reason for this post is to share some helpful information about where you or a loved one can find help, if you are suffering from depression.  In hindsight, I felt bad that I did not include more information in my last post on the subject of finding help.

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Depression-A Killer


How long will this subject remain in the shadows?  How long will it have such a stigma attached to it that people dare not even use the word ‘Depression’?

Life has no value to depression.  EVERY DAY 121 Americans commit suicide.  50% of those people suffered from depression.

More than 38,000 people a year commit suicide.  Yet 80 to 90% of those that seek help for depression are helped  using therapy and/or drugs.

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“Friend”-A Pitiful Word


You’ve been there when no one else would bother.  You know me better than any other soul on Earth.

You’ve always supported my decisions and you’ve saved me from myself, just in the nick of time; more than once.   You’ve shared in my triumphs and successes and you’ve grieved with me during my losses.

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Importance of Blogging


When I first came to WordPress, I really had no idea or direction for the way I wanted my blog to go.  Well, here it is, years later and I still have no direction.  Hee hee!!  But that’s alright.  I’m comfortable with how things are going and what I’m doing here.

So that brings up the question “What the hell am I doing here?”  The answer is a very simple one.  I’m doing whatever I feel like doing.

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Walt’s Medical Expenses


I know you’ve seen this before.  Please do what you can.  Help spread the word.  Thanks!

I’m reposting this today, since my first medical bills have started to arrive. It’s been 3 weeks since my surgery and bills so far amount to over $700. We’ve only raised $150 and we are grateful for that. My wife Susan has been on family medical leave without pay, so we have no income for […]

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