C is for ? — 4 M’s Bipolar mom


REBLOG:  Please don’t miss Bipolar mom’s post.  A public voice on Mental illness takes courage.  Enjoy.  ❤

Lying uncomfortably at the bottom of my well of sorrow, I thought for a long time what my C would stand for. For some unbeknownst reason as I am sure you’ve noticed, I’ve been trying to alphabet my way through my current experience and in so doing, understand and give verse to my reality. Understand […]

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Depression, Looking for Answers?


The reason for this post is because I was looking back at my stats for 2019. My most liked post and my most visited post is one called Depression and Denial. This tells me that people WANT information on this subject.

Those of you that have followed me for a while, know the reasons that I continue to write and speak out about Depression. My #1 reason is this: EVERY DAY 121 Americans commit suicide.  50% of those people suffered from depression.  Reason enough to write about it?  I thought so too. My #2 reason I write about it is to help end the stigma that surrounds Depression.

If you’re new to my blog and for some reason you’ve come across this post, maybe you’re looking for answers. Maybe you’re looking for help. Maybe you’re confused about how and why you feel the way that you do. Maybe, maybe, something that you find on my blog will help.

I pray that’s so.

If you need help, or if you’re just looking to get some questions answered about what you’re feeling, please visit my Mental Health Help page. On this page, you will find a lot of links, contact information, social media connections and phone numbers for different ways to seek help.

Also on this page are different posts that I’ve written on the subject of depression and mental health help. You might browse through these posts and see if there is something there that will connect with you. HERE is that link again.

I’ve lived this. I’ve walked this walk. I know about the hopelessness, the darkness that encompasses everything in your life. I know about the isolation, the feeling of being lost. I know what you’re dealing with. If you need answers, I hope you find something here that helps you. Stay strong. There IS help for you.

Thank you for joining me on this journey. ❤ Penny

(C) 2020 Penny Wilson

 

 

 

Say hello to The Robin’s Nest


If you haven’t had a chance to see Robin’s blog, you are missing a Treat!  Please take a minute to explore the goodness this woman shares with us!

I would like to start out by saying thank you to all the nominations I have received and am still receiving. It is an honor, exciting and I enjoy answering the questions. I noticed that almost everyone asks “Why do you write or blog?”. I thought about this question and decided to answer it as […]

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Versatile Blogger Award


I’ve been nominated by Adam over at Write Thoughts https://writet.wordpress.com/ for the Versatile Blogger Award!   Adam, you are so sweet to think of me!

What is a Versatile Blogger Award?

Bloggers nominate other bloggers who they believe deserve recognition for their high quality standard of writing and uniqueness of content.  Is this your way of saying I post random crap? I’m kidding!  🙂  Besides, I DO write random crap!  I’m honored and humbled to think that anyone would think my writing was of high quality!  Bless you Adam!

Rules of the Versatile Blogger Award

Thank the blogger that nominated you and share their link.  Nominate up to 10 bloggers for the award and provide their links to their blogs.  Also, inform them about the nomination.  Reveal 7 facts about yourself that your readers may not know.

My 7 Fun Facts

  1. I was actually born with the name Penny Nichols.  Try living up to that without any change!  (yuk yuk)
  2. I LOVE old black and white TV shows and movies.  Andy Griffith, The Rifleman, Gunsmoke, The Twilight Zone, James Stewart.  Stuff like that.
  3. I do not like strawberries or tomatoes!  I know, weird.
  4. I turned 60 in March!  Yikes!
  5. I would love to live in Mayberry!
  6. I dropped out of school my freshman year then went back and earned my GED so I could take college courses at the age of 40!
  7. I’ve recently broken my addiction to yard sales and flea markets!  🙂

My Nominees

Jason over at Harsh Reality https://aopinionatedman.com/

Robin at https://therobinsnest2017.com/

My friend Trent at  https://trentsworldblog.wordpress.com/

My new friend at Living In Stigma https://cherished79.com/

SauceBox at https://sauceboxsite.wordpress.com/

Lucky Otter at https://luckyottershaven.com/

Of course you are under no obligation to participate!  But I hope you all have as much fun with this as I did!  

The Spark


You knew what I was like without you.

You knew the mess I would be.

I collapse.

The pale light of the stars is of little solace.

No encouragement.

A captured moment dissolves between my fingers.

Meaningless.

The spark, oh that spark, I chase you.

I dive headlong through the white, only to dream of the other side.

It does not exist.

Why have you left me?

Alone, it is too much.

My muse, where have you gone?

Light of Day


Light of Day

First of all, I apologize for not posting more.  I’ve had my head up my butt and I think I am just starting to see the light of day.

A few of you that have followed me in the past (thank you!) know that I struggle with depression.  I’ve just come from a bout of it that was pretty dark.  It’s good to see the sun again!

I heard from a few of you during this dark time and I want to thank you for your encouragement.  It means a lot to me.

I’ve got several things in mind that I will be writing about and posting in the near future.  I hope you will give me a quick look-see as you scroll.

I’ve missed seeing my favorite peeps here and look forward to visiting your sites again.  Take care and thanks again!

Penny

NaNo Countdown


frustrated

I’m looking at the final week here of the NaNoWriMo challenge.  I got Nothing done on the weekend.  (shame on me!)  I spent most of my time working on Christmas presents.

I’m not sure what I’m doing for Thanksgiving.  I would really like to just hibernate.  I like the idea of spending the 4 days, tucked away, wearing my jammies all day if I want to.  Lazing on the couch, wasting the morning drinking coffee.

But that probably isn’t going to happen.

I’m pretty sure I won’t have my book done.  This book has turned into something much more complex and detailed than anything else I’ve written.

It does surprise me about the details.  The details in a book, I mean.  I guess being a reader all my life, I took those things for granted.  I’m referring to the real mechanics of a story.  Like when person A goes from place #1, through to place #’s 2, 3 and 4.  All those tiny details that need to be there to be sure your story flows in a logical progression.

The way a person’s body will move, what they see, hear, smell along the way are all the mechanics of the story.   But oh so important!

Even if I don’t complete my book by November 30th, I’m still really glad I took on this challenge.  The challenge has forced me to dig deep, to stick with it, return to that keyboard, even when I had no idea what was going to be written on the next page.

I accomplished more than I ever thought I would!

Although I’m having a good time, another eye opener for me is the actual WORK involved in writing something of this depth and length.  All of my writing up to this point has been shorter and much more of a lark.

Most of the time when I post something on WordPress, it’s for my own pleasure .   This book has been a real mixture of Work and pleasure.  I’ve got other,  more serious things I want to write about in the future and they will be WORK as well.

I hope all of the other NaNoWriMo participants are doing well at accomplishing their goals!  But no matter what, just remember, you tried!!  That in itself is huge!  So carry on fellow WriMo’s!!

One more thought here.  Thank you to those of you that continue to encourage, push and nag me!  🙂   I love you too.