C – Commiserate


Fire

This is my version of the A to Z challenge. 

C

Commiserate

Meaning: To feel or express sympathy or compassion.

I lost a dear friend of mine a couple of years ago.  I miss her terribly.  You know, that type of friend that will let you whine and cry on their shoulder if need be and all the while commiserate with you.

I like to think that I was that kind of friend to her too.

On a Friday or Saturday evening, we would buy the adult beverage of our choice, sit around her fire pit watching the fire and solve all the world’s problems.

The pleasure here was very simple.  Just the pleasure of another’s company and the freedom knowing that you can express yourself in any way you see fit.  We both knew that those “gab fests” would stay strictly between us and go no further.

We also knew that neither of us would be judged by whatever words managed to slur their way out of our mouths.  There were a few times, the next morning, I would shake my head, smiling at where the conversation had taken us.

The journey I was on with this woman was one of discovery.  Having someone you can talk to this freely was liberating.  I found myself realizing things about myself that I never knew before.

They say that the easiest person in the world to lie to is yourself.  We’ve all done it.

There were many “aha” moments for both of us.  Through this process, I think we both did some growing.

I miss this woman.  She was a good friend.

Ugh! Diet & Exercise :(


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Diet and exercise.  *Shudder*   Just the thought of it makes me cringe!  I HATE to exercise.  And dieting?  Who the hell wants to eat a bunch of stuff they don’t like?  Not me!

Despite all that…..

I’ve started a new diet and exercise program.  It’s been 2 weeks and I’ve lost 8 lbs. so far.   So I’m pretty jazzed.  I want to lose another 12.

The diet really isn’t a diet.  It’s just a change in the way I eat.  For now, I’m having no bread, potatoes, coffee creamer (boo!), fried food, fast food and no processed food.

Eating healthy is a lot more work than not.  I have to actually cook!   Living by myself for the last 5 or 6 years, I cook for myself very little.   It’s a lot easier and quicker to just grab something out of the freezer and nuke it.

But now, I have to plan what I will take in my lunch every day.  I didn’t realize that what was left of my bagged salad had gone bad.  I had planned on having salad with cooked chicken for lunch.  So, instead, I’m having some cooked chicken and carrots.  My afternoon snack will be a Tbsp. of creamy peanut butter.  I also brought along a hard boiled egg in case I get hungry later.

I’ve given up soda and pretty much sugar too.  I am drinking Crystal Light or equivalent and water, lots and lots of water.  I was NEVER a water drinker, but I have found some of the flavored waters on the market that are quite good.

The other night, I had a terrible craving for cereal and milk!  It’s one of my favorite late night snacks.  Lucky Charms of course!  (Don’t judge!)  I didn’t have any milk in the house.  So I finally got up and poured myself ½ cup of cereal and ate it dry.

It was very UNsatisfying!

Exercise.  Oh Lord!  I have never liked to exercise, just for the sake of exercising.  So I started off walking a mile a day.  I am now up to 3 miles a day.  I’ve gotten so that I look forward to it!  The weather here in Texas in the fall is just perfect for walking.  The temps are in the low to mid 70’s right now.  My goal is to reach 5 miles a day.

Now don’t laugh at me!  I bought a Richard Simmons CD to exercise to once the weather turns bad, or if it gets dark before I get my walk in.  I don’t walk alone at night here.  And just for the record I LIKE Richard Simmons!!  So there!   🙂

My new abode needs a LOT of work outside.  The yard is in terrible shape.  I live in the worst looking house in a very nice neighborhood, just because the yard has been so badly neglected.  I spent most of the day on Sunday cleaning up the back yard.  I wish I would have taken a BEFORE picture!

THAT’S the kind of exercise I like.  Where you are doing something you enjoy and you’re getting a workout  at the same time.

The inside of the house is starting to come together now too.  I’ve got some pictures hung up on the walls and more boxes unpacked.

I give myself one day off a week from my new routine.  But I still try not to go crazy, especially with eating.  I can gain 3 lbs. just from a one day food binge!

I’ll keep you posted on my progress!